So this is December…..we welcome you December!!! atleast this is not an April,May or June…..the only months that can be named beyond the calendar. Lucky for December, i do not have any intentions of naming any of my babies after it, even though it brings me joy and good tidings. The best holiday of the year comes at the end of the year. Christmas and all its melodies and colors….what could be any better.
December still reminds me of the fact that the year is ending, that i need to evaluate what i wished for, longed for and probably hoped for. It reminds me of my wish list, and humbles me to realize that i am not in control of it, how it turns out or whether my dreams come to life.
During my twenties, i was oblivious of this, i had targets, i knew inevitably that i would graduate….i mean, i was reading hard and even though i did not score the ultimate “gold platted” mark, i still did well. Certainly, i made it through even past post graduate level. I still remember how excited i was on my degree graduation day, i could not contain the joy, the night seemed long and i just could not wait for the morning sun to set. The moment i saw i ray of light, i jumped straight out of my bed into my gown!!! The next step was the job market, and that is when reality began to hit me.
I had began an internship programme during my University days and come post graduate, the same place took me in with open arms. Home came calling and i spent the next two years after completion of the latter in my upcountry home town working. The pay was minimal and some weekends in several months were spent indoors watching the latest movies…..those well, i could afford. I learnt the difference between wants and needs and what mattered as each day went by. I had to prioritize.
Honestly, it took me one year to hope for a new start and it came one and a half years later. I got exactly what i had both prayed and wished for, in all measure the full package. Like any other girl, i expected prince charming to have swept me off my feet at a certain time. Blame the Cinderella, Mills and Boom and other well orchestrated love movies that allowed me to build castles in the air…..low and behold, it still was not happening at the time i thought. I had it all planned out in my mind….hehehehehehehe!!!!
What i am saying here is that not many of my wishes came to pass at the time i thought they would, some did later on and yes, others are at snail speed and we will get there. I have learnt that it is very important to live every moment in life. I had names for my babies, i still do…..and you know what…..they changed over years. That is the lesson too, when we are young, it is not wrong to have dreams and goals, but when we mature later in life, and face the world, we need to appreciate that the wind can change direction and the ” By the time sydrome” comes in quite strong…… it bites sometimes through family and even close friends.
Let me share something, that sydrome is just that, nothing more, nothing less. I have not allowed it to bite though me because i know that what will be will be, and i have lived to see enough surprises in my life to realize that it is important to be grateful for each moment because it can change in the blink of an eye.
So as the year winds down, December reminds me to keep believing and give thanks too….. I have had an eventful great year, and 2020 is bringing me more butterflies. 2020 is the year when things unfold…….
HAPPY NEW YEAR♥♥♥
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